Passion
Serious blog alert!
I find my soul to be weary as of late…I can’t really describe its current state. Impartial, weary…bored, I’m not really sure. I always seem to be out of gas and my faith in people is at an all time low, nobody in particular…but there’s a void, an emptiness that needs to be addressed. Its been awhile since I have seen an evolution in my emotions, I'm kind of flat…same face, different day and I don’t like it – I don’t like it at all. I’m lacking passion for the things that I enjoy.
Today I was listening to Phil Collins on my drive into work (a groovy kind of love) Click the link for some Phil Collins goodness! Man, I love that song, I could listen to it on a loop all day long. It just does something to me, every time I hear it…I get chills, I see the video for that song playing in my head. There is a lone chair set up in the cellar/basement…he (Phil) then walks up to the chair, sits down with a cig in hand and flicks on a projector…watching this love dance on 8mm of film, light and canvas…it’s just magic to me. I envision that song playing on my wedding day. I stare deeply, passionately into my wife’s eyes and hearing it play…just like I've heard so many times before, but this time…its playing exactly the way I had seen it for so many years. That’s the passion I want to feel, that’s the passion I want to live, the passion I want to give.
…Then I remember that I’m almost 30 years old and haven’t had a relationship breach the year plateau in about 10 years LoL.
I need to make passion a priority in my life… take some time to think about me a lil more here and there. I love my music, cheesy 8o’s tunes…that you know someone couldn’t just write. It came deep down from within, somewhere painful…sometimes somewhere very private, but it came from the heart. At least, that’s how they sold it… it was real. Who knows, maybe I need to write a song J don’t worry, I won’t be doing the vocals LoL.
Don’t get me wrong here, I’m generally a happy guy…this blog isnt Big Mouth in crisis. It just been a long time since I’ve opened up and discussed the inner me, you know…the more interesting part of David. I’m making this the first step on the road to being a more passionate person, writing a passionate blog…watch out world, here I come.
Me.
I find my soul to be weary as of late…I can’t really describe its current state. Impartial, weary…bored, I’m not really sure. I always seem to be out of gas and my faith in people is at an all time low, nobody in particular…but there’s a void, an emptiness that needs to be addressed. Its been awhile since I have seen an evolution in my emotions, I'm kind of flat…same face, different day and I don’t like it – I don’t like it at all. I’m lacking passion for the things that I enjoy.
Today I was listening to Phil Collins on my drive into work (a groovy kind of love) Click the link for some Phil Collins goodness! Man, I love that song, I could listen to it on a loop all day long. It just does something to me, every time I hear it…I get chills, I see the video for that song playing in my head. There is a lone chair set up in the cellar/basement…he (Phil) then walks up to the chair, sits down with a cig in hand and flicks on a projector…watching this love dance on 8mm of film, light and canvas…it’s just magic to me. I envision that song playing on my wedding day. I stare deeply, passionately into my wife’s eyes and hearing it play…just like I've heard so many times before, but this time…its playing exactly the way I had seen it for so many years. That’s the passion I want to feel, that’s the passion I want to live, the passion I want to give.
…Then I remember that I’m almost 30 years old and haven’t had a relationship breach the year plateau in about 10 years LoL.
I need to make passion a priority in my life… take some time to think about me a lil more here and there. I love my music, cheesy 8o’s tunes…that you know someone couldn’t just write. It came deep down from within, somewhere painful…sometimes somewhere very private, but it came from the heart. At least, that’s how they sold it… it was real. Who knows, maybe I need to write a song J don’t worry, I won’t be doing the vocals LoL.
Don’t get me wrong here, I’m generally a happy guy…this blog isnt Big Mouth in crisis. It just been a long time since I’ve opened up and discussed the inner me, you know…the more interesting part of David. I’m making this the first step on the road to being a more passionate person, writing a passionate blog…watch out world, here I come.
Me.
posted by Big mouth | 11:59 AM
1 Comments:
You know, honestly, it's become a rather recurring theme among quite a few poepl I know to get really introspective over the past few weeks...
Maybe it's a new breed of flu... an emotional virus that's smacking us all upside the head.
Good on ya for letting it out, though, man.
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