my BIG MOUTH is frowning :(

This is going to be one of the BIG MOUTH serious pieces, hard to come by and thats why they are priceless. Hopefully this relates to you in some way shape or form, if not...thats ok, cause it happened to me and not you :)

Tonight somebody i cared about told me to FUCK OFF after i confronted them about something i knew they wouldnt react well to. I can understand how i upset them, but what they said still bothered me. Usually when someone says something like this to me, its warranted or i dont care. But when its someone you care about, it always stings. Even tho i come across to most as a hardass, void of emotion and somewhat of a playboy...im a very sensitive individual, and that sucks because when people know youre that way, sometimes they dig much harder then they have to, feeling that something less sharp wouldnt bother me, when in fact ... it did... and very much so. that wasnt the case tonight, but because it was someone that was so important to me, so it broke me a lil bit inside.

This confrontation just put me in a state, u know... when youre driving home from something like that and everything is quiet, you make it home but you were so lost in your thoughts youre amazed that you didnt drive into the back of another vehicle. The sensation is so focused, those kinda hurt feelings consume you... im guessing that im going to be up the majority of the night thinking about it. Hopefully not, when i write like this it usually helps settle me, although i usually write for myself and not for the public eye.

The great thing about tonight is that its almost over and tomorrow is a new day. cliche i know, but its the truth and i have no other choice but to live with the circumstances. I think one of the most common misconseptions of language, is the ability of those words to hurt, even if thats not the intention. One might use a dagger word out of frustration, anger or possibly just accidentally let it slip out, regardless...man, they can send your emotions for a whirl. I try to be very specific with my words and not speak out of haste, but that only comes from being a loud mouth hurtful bastard when i was younger so i understand how they can take flight.

I think im done writing for now, i feel a bit better and im sure things will work themselves out tomorrow. I care for this person like i would my own family, this individual means EVERYTHING to me....

David.